8/9/99
Persuading You


	I try and try, but I could never make you love me. The things
I've done are always done for you,  no matter how remotely. But you'll
never know, never believe, no matter what that stupid poster of yours
says. I could beg and plead for a million years, could explain my reasons
until my throat goes completely dry, and you would never truly know,
not with the anger that clouds your eyes, your heart.

	I could never make you love me. But it doesn't mean I won't try.

	I give you the one thing I know you'll understand, the one thing
you can't ignore. The one thing you can't twist or change for the purpose
of your own agenda and explanations.

	I give you my heart.

	Don't worry, I won't miss it. You know why? Because it hasn't
been mine for many years now. Upon my first glimpse of you, it was yours.

	And this is one gift you can't return.

	So take it, Mulder. It belongs to you, forever.

	And the way I see it, you have two choices; you can rip it to
pieces with hate and madness, or you can cherish it by loving it back.
It's your decision.

	Just remember this; the greatest gifts are the ones that come
once in a lifetime. If someone handed you The Truth on a silver platter
(and if I could, believe me, I would) you'd fall to your knees in thanks,
because it's all you've ever wanted.

	Having someone give themselves to you, body and soul, also comes
only once in a lifetime. You'll never get this opportunity again. And
while you may think it's not something you want, you're damn wrong.
Everyone needs love, Mulder. When Samantha was abducted, your parents
blamed you, and you lost the love in your life. And so you went
searching for her, for the love you never had. And now I'm giving you
back the love that you lost, and this time it's unconditional.

	So why waste it? Why throw away something so precious and rare?
Diamonds and rubies and emeralds don't go in the trash. Love, true, deep,
abiding, unerring love doesn't get torn apart by vengeance.

	So, Mulder, you think about this for awhile. I'll be back, just
like I always am. Staying away isn't an option. Life could not exist
without the sun and I would die without your light.


The
End